I posted on here months ago, but have been lurking ever since. I had an issue with trusting my boyfriend around his friends who were girls. I learned to trust him completely. I believed what he was telling me. And then last night he admitted he has feelings for his best friend. I never suspected anything. He told me they were like siblings.
After he told me I told him it was over. I told him how angry and heartbroken I felt. He told me not to throw the truth back in his face because he is hurting, too. That made me even angrier. He said it is hard for him to love me and have feelings for someone else. So what? I told him relationships need boundaries as a part of commitment. Putting yourself in a situation in which feelings can arise is irresponsible. He told me I was crazy for thinking that way. I guess the only good thing coming out of this is he realizes how wrong he was. How nice for the next girl.
I am just venting here I guess. I feel like I could have dealt with any other reason for breaking up, but I’ve never been left for someone else. I feel so worthless. I feel like such a fool for believing him and ignoring my own instinct. When did I get so weak? How do I fast forward time and stop feeling like this?
